All she did was listening to the words of other men
Made her scared of her own shadow and her friends
Slowly falling in a hole of psychotic rage
What is truth and what is nightmare in the end?
What is trust?
Day by day she lost her grip on consciousness
Fear is all that substains her artificial truth
So she listens without hearing a single word
Devastating all she ever tried to keep from harm
So why can't you trust?
Say what do you fear from me?
So why can't you trust?
Say what, what do fear from me?
Say what, what do fear from me?
Ever churning in her mind was treachery
Broke her heart though she won't find an open proof
In the end she cried for everything she did
Devasted all she ever tried to keep from harm
So why can't you trust?
Say what do you fear from me?
So why can't you trust?
Say what, what do fear from me?
Say what, what do fear from me?
I never thought that you might be
So blind completely blind
Throwing everything away
We had instead
What did I do to earn you scorn
Before I've gone away
Your accusations drive me mad
With every fucking word you say...
Why can't you trust?
So why can't you trust?
Say what do you fear from me?
So why can't you trust?
Say what, what do fear from me?
So what, what do fear from me?
Rain pours on my aching head
While I stare at bloodied hands
Seems more like a bad dream
That's finally catching up
With me, my live, my soul
Stripped away in shreds of red
Like a setting sun
At the end of days
Rain, wash away all I've ever said
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
When I'm whole and sane'n why all this hate?
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
Soaking wet in bitter lies
Waiting like a loaded gun
Redeem myself
Bullet upon bullet through my flesh
In time, eye to eye
We'll judge it tooth for a tooth
Who cares for bitter smiles
When nothing's left to lose
Rain, wash away all I've ever said
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
When I'm whole and sane'n why all this hate?
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
Voices within me
Speak in envy
Why don't you burn?
Voices within me
Speaking envy
Why don't you burn?
Voice within me...
Rain, wash away all I've ever said
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
When I'm whole and sane'n why all this hate?
Rain, wash me clean of all this mess
Why don't you burn?
Why don't you burn?
Endless days, you feel so abused
In a way you never chose
So finally you ended up
Unfullfilled in my eyes
Something broke along the way
When it was, couldn't say
As you stare bleaky eyed
Unfullfilled in your eyes
As time runs by
All memory's bile
You can't deny
The rift inside
Oh – And every day I die anew
In the fire that is truth
Never far from the line
In submission's lullaby
Are there dreams in your soul
Or are they all dead and cold?
Taken aback by a child
Burried deep in endless lies
Shaken in the mirror's eye
When blue and red reunite
As time runs by
All memory's bile
You can't deny
The rift inside
Oh – And every day I die anew
In the fire that is truth
Remember me!
Remember me!
Remember me!
Remembering...
As time runs by
All memory's bile
You can't deny
The rift inside
Oh – And every day I die anew
In the fire that is truth
Truth!
Truth!
Every thought that's in me
Paints another world than yours
Drives me farther from the way
That's everything for you
In this rift of growing apart
You plant the seed of bitterness
By forcing me to bow my head
You drive me from my way
You wanna break the will in me
Wanna get a hold on me
Wanna plant your truth in me
Deep in my head
In my head
In my head
Oh I've listened to it all
Every time you screamed at me
But never did it sink too deep
To cloud my eyes from what is real
Did I ever try to steal
The scope of your fucked up ideals?
Why don't you carve your words in stone?
A loser's epitaph
You wanna break the will in me
Wanna get a hold on me
Wanna plant your truth in me
Deep in my head
In my head
In my head
Get out of my head
Out of my head
Get out of my head
Out of my...
I never be like you
I'd hate to be like you
I never be like you
I'd hate to be like you
Every story told by you
Never changes my mind in
How much I hate you
Every litany of you
Never changes my mind in
How much I hate you
You wanna break the will in me
Wanna get a hold on me
Wanna plant your truth in me
Deep in my head
In my head
In my head
In my head
In my head
Take my hand if you wanna fall
Down the gullet of lust in you once and for all
Don't ever hesitate
Now it's time to be
Yeah, don't you wanna feel
Every single fibre inside of thee
Yeah, don't you trust in me?
In the end, why should I lie to thee?
When I look in your soul, places of satori
Cherubic waterfall of everything you might be
Wonderful yearning for everything possible
What a fault could result if you don't bloom, indeed
Hey yeah - Angel, Devil, they keep calling me
Hey yeah - Angel, devil, doesn't bother me
Hey yeah - Angel, devil, the keep calling me
Hell let me take you yet
Far away from the picture inside your head
Girl, let me show you, though
Were you'll long to be
Yeah, as you lie with me
Drop it down all that restraint inside of thee
Yeah, it is plain to see
It's in your eyes
When I look in your soul, places of satori
Cherubic waterfall of everything you might be
Wonderful yearning for everything possible
What a fault could result if you don't bloom, indeed
Hey yeah - Angel, Devil, they keep calling me
Hey yeah - Angel, devil, doesn't bother me
Hey yeah - Angel, devil, the keep calling me
Insomnia…
Insomnia…
Nothing will stop what we sowed with our bodies' sweat
Pictures of craving fulfilled in becoming flesh
Insomnia…
So you wanna fulfill
So you wanna Fulfill
So you wanna fulfill
So you wanna fulfill
One by one - nothing to say
A living line of disarray
Iron bars dissect my sun
In the times I'm on my own
Dreams of havens, warm and safe,
Of innocence in mother's womb
Where time is nothing, out of place
Far away from sterile tombs
Ghosts of white're grabbing me
Crush me down on legs of woods
Suck my blood and feed my fear
Jailors of my four-walled world
Soothing tongue, though devils brain
Shutting out nature's breath
Turning off my man-made sun
Granting another rest
You said my life is safe in your hands
You said my life was safe in your hands
My life's forfeit
No hate, no pride, just a voice inside
You liar!
Wardrums beat in my veins
Last call to the porcine...
Fear and anger feeding me
To fight back tooth and nails
I spit in your face
Spitting everything you give to me
Swallow down, swallow down
Seething pathogens
May angels with burning blades
Smite yon hide
Tearing down your soul
Endlessly...
You said my life is safe in your hands
You said my life was safe in your hands
My life's forfeit
No fear, no pride, just a voice inside
You liar!
So farewell my friend
Freedom my friend
So farewell my friend
Freedom my friend
You liar!
My friend!
You liar!
I've seen it all for what it is
A shadow on your face
You tried before to hide it
From yourself, you know you did
You want to rearrange
Not only vegetate
You want to be yourself
All reminiscent moods
Won't stop your odyssey of self
Quite indistinct this dream of yours
Don't try to fool yourself
Don't waste your time, Let us feel alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
Don't waste your time – time to be alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
Though still restrained by all these chains
You feed the veins of entropy
Drowsing, shallow on your mind
Time to take flight
Don't waste your time, Let us feel alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
Don't waste your time – time to be alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
In an unsuspecting mind
A plan was left behind
About the end of odyssey
Before the end of day
Alive –
Hell we'll feel alive
Don't waste your time, Let us feel alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
Don't waste your time – time to be alive
Don't waste your mind this is your escape
Vers 1
It was all inside
A little piece of pride
Taken from her
Open pleading hands
Vers 2
So for all it’s worth
Took me down to earth
And planted ire
Dead in sodden grounds
Chorus-Interlude
So take my hand
Your only friend
I see you through
I see you through
Vers 3
And when all was done
All memories she shun
Hoping she had
Only dreamed her hand’s work
Chorus
Come and take my hand
Your only friend
I’ll see you through
But don’t blame me for saving you
An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
We'll paint the world in red
Vers 4
Always by your side
Not always just nor right
Waiting for the
Minute that you called
Vers 5
Burning house and hide
So, darling, dry your eyes
Don’t you mourn
The ashes that we caused
Chorus
Come and take my hand
Your only friend
I’ll see you through
But don’t blame me for saving you
An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
We'll paint the world in red
Vers1
My steps feel leaden as I walk the winding lanes of life - undecided
Is it really as dark as I feel it inside - ... losing my mind?
Feel myself sink in despair's quicksand - ... Hope's forfeit...
Chorus
Half way down but rising
Chewing sand but looking up
They won’t break me this time
Not inclined to give up - No
Vers2
My blood recoils from the cadence of life. Live it up – fuck it up!
So crave a way to save what’s in your heart. Start it up!
Chorus
Half way down but rising
Spitting sand and reaching up
Doubt won’t beat me this time
Not inclined to give up!
Half way down but rising
Free of sand I’m standing up
Fear can’t wear me down now
No more time for cover-ups
Live it up!
I won’t go down like this
I won’t die like this
I won’t forget where I’m headed
I won’t die here, hanging my head
I won’t…
I won’t…
All the pent-up fears inside
Cannot pull me down like quicksand
Half way down but rising
Chewing sand but looking up
Fear can’t wear me down now
Never, ever giving up
Half way down but rising
Chewing sand but looking up
Onward is the way out
Never, ever giving up
Giving up…
Giving up…
All my insight! All MY life!
** Light of Day **
You feel betrayed by your own hands
But yet again you’ve tried and you have failed
Once – not bearing to subside
Once – you want to make things right
You bore the eyes of disarray
And yet you pray the rye of hope is ripe enough for reap
Once – you want to be inside
Once – you want to make things right
As you feel the light of day
The demons freeze inside
It’s time to start a new life
And the pieces, the pieces fit
You broke the seal of self-control
Though you hoped maybe someday you’d be hard enough to heed
Once – to pass the great divide
Once – you want to make things right
As you feel the light of day
The demons freeze inside
It’s time to start a new life
And the pieces, the pieces fit [:]
As you feel the light of day
No doubt remains inside
It’s time to live again
The pieces, the pieces fit
** (Arbeitstitel) River Styx (Ode to the ferryman) **
Rotting oars in silence
Dripping water in the night
Stealthy creeps the ferryman
To rob a belly of it’s fruit
Hush you filthy thief of hope
Well-neigh your touch gave you away
As I awoke in sodden grief
Anger burns in thoughts of you
Pray that I won’t find you (4x)
Illusions broke, you took away
The fruit of love in secrecy
A broken heart is forging steal
To shear the wood and break the tie
I dream of stepping in your boat
Vengeance on a filthy thief
I whet my tool, prepare the tale
Picking up your dead cold trail
Pray that I won’t find you (4x)
You won’t come back
Never again
Ferryman I’ll take you down
To the bed of river Styx
Strangling haughty silence
‘till you’re lost, as I am now